Big Sean has spoken about his struggle with anxiety and depression, which forced him to cancel a tour in 2018.
Sean revealed that he went through a difficult period last year around his 30th birthday.
He says that around that time, he realised he was facing issues which needed “special attention” and had therapy for his problems.
“I wasn’t feeling like myself and I couldn’t figure out why,” he said on Instagram.
“I just felt lost – and I don’t know how I got there.”
He posted three videos on his social media, in which he spoke openly about his experiences.
He previously scrapped a US tour last year partly because of his mental health, telling Billboard magazine at the time: “I never really took the time out to nurture myself.”
Sean said on Instagram that he has used meditation to cope with anxiety and depression since he was 17 years old, but needed to get professional help.
‘It all started with me’
He started therapy, which he says helped him get “clarity” on his situation and was able to focus on relationships which had meaning in his life.
“I had a lot of toxic relationships around me,” he says.
“Even the relationship with my mum was getting to a point where we weren’t talking like that.
“It was just weird because it had never been like that with me and her.”
Sean says that his mental health issues meant that he lost interest in making music, saying it began to feel “like a job”. “I realised that it all started with me,” he says. “I couldn’t point the finger at anyone else, I had to point it at myself, nurture those relationships that were important to me but most importantly nurture the relationship with myself.” Sean says that spending time by himself, doing activities he enjoyed alone, helped. He even went skydiving to try and improve his mental health. “In the midst of that I definitely rediscovered myself and found a whole new energy and me being the source of it – not somebody else,” he says. “Put the energy back into yourself, be clear about what you want to do and just know that it all translates to happiness.” Sean released his fourth album, I Decided, in February 2017 but in his Instagram post suggests that his improved mental health may mean new music is on its way. “I started getting back to making music and it started being fun again and I’m making the best music of my life,” he says. “It feels good to be back at a higher level.”
Source: bbc.com