Matt Willis has been open and honest about the degree of his drug use, admitting that he would regularly consume 6 grams of cocaine.
In the new BBC documentary Fighting Addiction, the Busted icon, 39, discusses his struggles with substance usage with his 47-year-old wife Emma Willis.
The artist originally quit drinking in 2008, the year he wed Emma. He later relapsed, including after the couple’s children, Isabelle, 13, Ace, 10, and Trixie, 6, were born.
During the hour-long feature, Matt reflects on his most recent relapse, which was five years ago, during a reunion tour with his band Busted, the noughties pop band behind hits like Year 3000.
He tells the programme-makers that during the after-party after one of their sold-out dates, he was offered a line of the class A drug, which he accepted because he believed his addiction issues stemmed from alcohol.
‘I was like, “Cocaine wasn’t a problem for me, alcohol was my downfall,” he explained.,
‘Within a month I was doing six grams, bang, bang, bang, bang, on my own every f**cking day and not coming home until 3am in the morning, pretending I was working on my album.
‘I wasn’t really writing I was making s**t music in the studio doing coke.
‘It was straight back to that shame cycle, the shame of relapse, the same of letting everyone down, the shame of using uncontrollably trying to stop and not being able to.’
Emma, struggling to hold back tears, explains she was ‘flabbergasted’ Matt had relapsed, adding: ‘I didn’t expect it. I think because he had been doing so well for such a long time.
‘It was the last thing I thought.’
Matt has previously spoken about feeling ‘ashamed’ about being ‘the mastermind at gaslighting Emma, making her think she was crazy.’
‘I’m so ashamed of that,’ he confessed to The Guardian. ‘And I never want her to feel like that again.’